If

if love is all i have to give you
then give it back
and send me on my way
the world is not small anymore
there are more than two
many more
more troubles than ours
simple as they may be
solved with ease
but theirs are not.
theirs take months
years
tens apon thousands of hours
put into
one
ugly
problem.
if i told you my love was
gone,
that'd be a lie.
if i told you that i didnt
care,
my false statement would strangle me.
if i said that without you, my life would go on
unhitched,
then the burden of my deciet,
the error in my words
would surely smother me to death.
a death i would freely accept
should a single
statement
above
lie true for you
without my knowledge.
for you to settle for me
to live with me
not as a benifit
but a burden
is a punishment i'm not deserving of
a punishment you place apon yourself
so if love is all i have to give you
then give it back, or watch me die

Tears of a Heart

Pain.

Anger.

Hurt.

Sadness.

Grief.

Mourning.

Knife

cut

hear.

Distract

me.

Love

me.

Save

me.

Trust

me.

Just
don't

let

me

go.

Burned

Eyes closed, I feel the sun rays as they

dance

on my back. Turning, jumping, flipping.
As they move they excite me, bringing me
to peace as they warm me,
leaving a mist of sweat in their paths.

Soft sea breeze pulsing with the waves
cools me, chasing the rays

away.

But they always return
to bring me warmth and peace.
Only, the peace has gone with

the rays,

which left in their midst more
than sweat beading on my back,
lead away by the pulse of the ocean.
The rays tread hard on my back, legs, stomach,
leaving their dance floor angry,

red.

The dance they danced. Though
it brought wonder and joy,
left destruction in its path.
They let me

burn.

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Take a minute
Hold me
Tell me
How you feel
What you've said
Who you've been around
Tell me I'm not going crazy
When I tell you that I feel

alone.

I know where we stand
I know how we stand
How we move
How we love
How you love me
Vice versa
So why can't I say it
Without feeling that somehow,

I'm hurting you.

But I cannot turn off how I feel
As I cannot turn off the crash of the waves out side
nor the pulse of the heart
the steady breathing
of my sibling as she sleeps
I'm waiting
Waiting to hear I've hurt you
Waiting to hear the mistakes I've made
and Waiting to hear that you

forgive me.

Overflow

To hold a crying stranger in your arms. To feel him shake in your embrace, as tears well over his eyes, streaming down his cheeks, as you pray for God to take the pain away. 

Overflow is where I spent my weekend, and this is the memory that will stick in my mind forever. It was the final group session, and this boy sat down in the front row in front of us. He was probably the most outgoing person that I met throughout the weekend. He came down and right away, was making jokes, asking us the 'would you rather...' questions they showed on the screen as we waited, and he was participating enthusiastically the entire time. Then, when it neared the end of the session, Reggie Dabbs, the keynote speaker, asked anyone who was living in Hell to stand, so that we may pray for them. I watched, part in horror, part in wonder as the boy, young man, stood up. Then Reggie said to go and stand next to someone who stood up if you didn't, and to pray for them, and  couldn't not go straight to him. At least four of us stood around him, as we prayed, as he cried, and as I felt tears of my own in my eyes. 

Of all people, I shouldn't have been surprised he stood up, but yet, there was this shock in me. I remembered what it feels like to smile each day while you're really dying inside. I remembered the poem Reggie told us about, and I couldn't be more thankful that I no longer have that pain in my life. Then I thought of the boy in front of me, and I felt as the pain was back.

After we had prayed, he was smiling again, the tears still in his eyes, along with what looked like a glimmer of hope. A hope to find out what's next.

Spring Awakening

I heard your call,

awake, i all

but leapt out of bed right there

to find you, standing unaware

of what was to come.

We’ve seen our days

grow bright, the haze

turn to clear skies as we pass

by slowly through the grass.

Peace is in your eyes,

your heart, your smile. Lies

they ne’er could tell,

for they’d face our tears, and well,

that wouldn’t go over well.

But love is a happy thing.

It leaps and bounds through spring

coloured flowers floating below

the meadow. to what do we owe

this pleasure?

Rosary!

hummm... so
I went to youth at St Andrews last night, and there, we made these prayer beads, sorta like a rosary. The youth leader challenged us to say it every day once, which has lead me to choose my lent challenge. I'm going to say a decade of the rosary everyday, maybe twice, i dont know. But yes, this is what i will do, and after much searching, i have found the final prayer to make up the decade of the rosary as i know it. :D
woot!

For those who are curious, its:
10 Hail Marys
1 Our Father
1 Glory Be to the Father
1 Oh My Jesus
1 Memorare

this is the decade as i know it, enjoy! :P

And so it began

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will.
You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too,
so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love
for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone
you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every
sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.
Don't be afraid that your life will end,
be afraid that it will never begin.

so that's what they call it...

Intertwined

we find the freedom to fly

beyond the faults of ourselves

and others

to new heights

of which none have looked upon

of which none have spoken of

for none have seen what we have seen

none have felt what we have felt

for none have walked in our footsteps

footsteps that have stumbled along the way

kicking up sand

and life

footsteps that have walked fast

and slow

close

and apart

we've led each other down this path

following the sky

the clouds

the wind

the light

the sparkle in you eyes

the warmth of your embrace

the strength of your voice

move my legs

my arms

my self

forward

with you.

To Annonymous

So, today someone commented on my post 'When life gives you lemons, make lemonade' and asked me to post any pictures or images that have to do with the quote.
Me, being the awesome person I am (:D) have obliged.

You can find the original post here.
http://ameinzinger.blogspot.com/2007/11/when-life-gives-you-lemons-make.html



And these are links to pictures I like for the quote :D
I'm not only going literal, but also with the general concept.

http://www.penny-arcade.com/images/2000/20000310h.jpg
http://happybunny.orbitearthstores.com/images/lemonssticker-huge.jpg
http://www.smh.com.au/ffximage/2006/04/04/lemon_narrowweb__300x329,0.jpg
http://www.clipartof.com/images/clipart/xsmall2/5687_man_with_lemons_pitcher_of_lemonade_and_a_glass_of_juice.jpg
http://imagecache2.allposters.com/images/pic/NIM/PL004~Musician-in-the-Rain-Posters.jpg
http://imagecache2.allposters.com/images/pic/QUOMAG/M82~Dance-Alfred-Souza-Posters.jpg
http://feedonfeeds.com/minutillo.com/steve/weblog/images/mario-sheet-music.jpg


and yes, that IS the score for super mario brothers theme
:D
♥

But I do believe in God

This was brought on today when I received a forward essentially telling me that if I didn't forward it to everyone in my address book, that I am clearly ashamed to be Christian.

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I believe in God.
I love Him with all my heart.
However, this does not mean I will start sending forwards about Him that go on and on with several endings to everyone in my address book.
I'm not ashamed of Him, all if not most of my friends are well aware that I am Christian. All if not more of my friends know that I live by Him in everything I do.
But I will not pass on a forwarded message about Him that goes on and on with several endings to everyone in my address book.
and I wont for a few reasons
first of all, they are always annoying, in bold and several different colours.
second of all, while I don't care about what others think of me more than I care about what God thinks of me, I know that if others start to think of me as dumb or something else along those lines because I believe in God and pass on annoying forwards to everyone in my address book about him, that that can keep others from seeing Him with love.
I don't want people to think of Christians as pushy. I want people to think of us as loving and caring, such that they WANT to be Christian. Not because someone showed up at their door selling Bibles, because they WANT to buy their own.

I want people to become captivated by God, and His word. By Jesus, and His Love.
Not by someone sending you an email that tells you how horrible a Christian you are for not forwarding it.
But by The Lord, who tells you you are beautiful in everything you do, and wants to help you to be even better.